… at work yes, at home … I am struggling. There are lot of things I have adapted to, but some habits or manners … it’s not working with me (yet). Those kind of habits are sharing, asking for help, Grog (to an extent).
Sharing food is just something that wouldn’t come to my mind. Everyone around me would share their lunch or snacks, even with me … but do you think I offer mine? This idea is not popping up in my head. Either this option just doesn’t exist or there is a missing trigger. Obviously I haven’t tried hard enough yet and it is for sure not high on my priority list. But from time to time I am noticing this behavior. Then I try to offer, but I have the impression people don’t take food here from white people or they don’t like my cooking 😉 . So, I am not putting it up on my priority list or my resolutions for next year. However, I will keep monitoring it.
Asking for help … yeah, being raised as an independent women living by herself most of the years … I am not asking. Then people come and offer help. I accept it, but sometimes I really don’t want help and at that point it becomes annoying. Because then I feel obliged to give back the favour. The thing I wanted to avoid from the beginning. I think I need to resort my approach here. Now that I am writing it down it feels rude from my side. Sure, you always will have people that come and help and want something in return.But I want to look at it differently, so it doesn’t give my life this negative spin. Any suggestions or ideas?
Drinking Yaqona .. that’s Fiji. And yes, I am enjoying it from time to time. But I prefer to control it too, like I don’t want to drink grog every day. I don’t want to drink grog after midnight, especially during working days. I still get the feeling that I have better things to do than sitting there doing nothing … is that called socializing? Hahahaha!
Just my 2 cents for today … still missing a proper timing to get back to regularity on posting.
Love you all !